Day 542

Today, a nice day to myself in long beach. Its looking like its gonna rain out, and its been rather cold all day. I went for a run this morning, and nearly froze off the last 30 pounds. . . just couldn't bring myself to do it.

Last night, dinner alone at gladstones, followed by a minute in borders and some ice cream which never tasted so good. After arriving home, I stayed up till 3 writing a song for melinda - im really happy with it, its got a nice beat to it, and some layered voice and guitar parts which emphasize my feelings for her.

Goal wise, im 221!!! Congradulations, to myself. Im now back to the greener side. As march comes, im confident I can at least get to 215 by the end of the month - working on these last 30 is crazy. My body is having a hard time adjusting, but its so important to me right now - maybe more than ever. I want to look my best. Im gonna look the best.

Day 535

This week, I injured my shoulder somehow, and as a result, i didn't workout from tuesday to friday. Ironically, I lost about 5 pounds this week, reaching 219 on the scale today. I ate very light most days, nearly fasting since i didn't need all that food. Its amazing how I've lost around 15 pounds since new year's, this being the most progress in my diet for almost 9 months. While this low number on the scale im sure reflects dehydration, its still exciting to see that I really only have 29 pounds left to go until my goal of 190. Today I also read a bit about the Master Cleanse diet, and while I don't want to do it yet, I think Im gonna try it once I get to 190. Then maybe itll take me down to 175. Im going to try and see the chiropractor this week, maybe he can help me with my upper shoulder. In the mean time, im gonna try and stay off the computer - i think that's part of the problem. Man, pizza sounds good right now.

Day 528

What a weekend - had such an unbelievable time last night, saw some great music at the jazz bakery and I hung out with some amazing ladies in manhattan beach. It was so much fun dancing with caitlin and hanging with her friends, she's such an amazing woman.

Paul Dooley's recital went very well, the piece was amazing. And the teaching was good on saturday, and then in the morning i met the most amazing girl at seattle's best in irvine. I did the usual drop of the note to tell her how pretty she was, hopefully ill run into her again.

And then. . . . even after eating cake at dooley's recital and everything else - i still managed to weigh in at 222 today! even seeing a 221.8! Thats unbelievable, considering I weighed 10 lbs more about a month ago. Im definetly on the right track now. Its for sure gonna happen. Going to target today and picking up some new dress clothes made me feel good, even though I know I still have a "weigh"s to go hahah.

this week i have a lot of work to do, and im gonna get it im sure. I have a recording session on friday for new west, some papers to write and more recordings to do. . . ill keep you posted. Thanks to the YMCA, im back to where I was in october.

See you at 190 (or more like 175) hahah

Day 525

Things are moving along today, im now 224, and i had a great workout day yesterday - gym in the morning, and running at night. This morning, I worked out my legs, and ran for 10 minutes, and did the eliptical for 20. Hopefully, Im not doing too much. Right now, my primary goal is to get below 218, where I was back in october. At this rate, Ill hopefully be there by the end of the month.

This cut on my finger has really set me back - im gonna have to shed this solo guitar thing im recording tommorrow, with three fingers - ugh. As soon as I enter this entry, im logging out for the day on the web. This internet thing is driving me nuts right now, don't quite know what to do.

Day 524

Well, i had a frustrating day yesterday, my teaching schedule constantly changing, and then i had a bit of a stomping fest with my scale. I guess i shouldn't get so upset if im up or down a few pounds every other day.

The point is right now im on the right track at least, currently, im about 225. I really want to be back to 218 by the end of the month, and maybe 210 by the end of march, followed by a trend into the 200s in april and may, then maybe 190 and beyond by this summer. At least my waist is getting smaller and i weigh the same, that means im putting on some muscle.

Food wise, im really stuck right now, i broke my george forman on the floor of the kitchen by accident, so i can't cook chicken. Im so sick and tired of brown rice and veggies - they really stink. I hate eating these little tiny pizzas that are full of fat, but are the only thing that fills me up. I hate making sandwiches, its just the same old crap over and over again. I gotta figure out my grocery situation a bit more. I know trader joe's is the trick, but i need to diversify a bit. Im just afraid im gonna get the wrong thing that will lead me to maintain or gain weight over the course of two weeks.

Right now, im doing my laundry. As I sift through my clothes, I can't wait to get new ones. My clothes are so worn and old, i only have a couple of shirts that fit me right now, and one pair of jeans that fit. I don't want to get new ones until i get this waist size down a bit more. Only a couple more months and then ill go get that stuff.

Im on the internet so much right now, i need to slow down a bit. After entering this blog, im gonna log out until 5:00 when i should check in with my student.

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Fri - Day 519 (today 520)

Friday's are not my good days. I hate how I find myself alone in the evening, no where to go, the end of a week that was less than productive, debating weather or not to go out or face the gloom reprise of staying in. Last night, I went to the yard house. Ate a nice chicken salad - dressing on the side of course. Then went to go see a terrible movie called "Because I said So". Thank god its saturday morning now. I can go teach my lessons and then come home and get the ball rolling on some serious practicing for a week of recording sessions.

Weight wise, I was around 227 this morning. I guess it fluxuates a few pounds, im probably more like 225. With this being my first week of my mom gone, I can tell that its gonna be easier to stick to a strict diet plan, not being tempted to go eat out for free or get free slop food from her sorority house.

Men's health has a nice issue this month that seems to directly speak to me. Focusing on weight loss, it seems that all the tips they're giving the readers, im following, and it sounds like, when you read the article, that Im the one writing it. This reassures me, and hopefully with some more consistancy, ill eventually reach my weight goals. Right now im just trying to get to 218 again, then ill be back to the lowest spot in this journey (approx. sept-oct 06).

I can see myself reaching there by the end of the month and hopefully reaching into the 2-teens.

Im really desperate for some new clothes, the ones Ive been wearing for about a year are really not doing the trick and I have only three shirts that fit me properly. But why go buy new clothes when Im only gonna throw those ones out after getting to 175-190???

Also, I figured out that its probably wise to skip a day of excersize a week becuase the body gets used to such activity and becomes less impactful on my body. This morning i tried to get up at 7, but no luck. Tommorrow, ill go for a run in the evening after I return from LA.

On friday I ate:

1. Cereal
2. 2 pieces of toast w/peanut butter
3. low fat cottage cheeze
4. grapes
5. pastrami and turkey sand
6. chips/pretzels/doodads
7. chicken salad w/avocado, fried stuff (probably should have avoided that garnish), corn, beans, lettuce, tomato, chipolte and ranch dressing.

So besides the dressing, the fried stuff on the salad, and the fact that I had around 6 servings of carbs, it was a pretty good day. I also ran down to the pier from here. Ill probably make it to the gym on monday for another week of weights/cardio/and jolting this fucking hill off my chest.

Day 518

Things are well, i've really got a grip on this. Im working on these last 45 pounds, and at this rate, ill be there by july.

Current: Feb 1: 224, 42"
Goal: July 23: 175, 32-34" (day 689)

So maybe by day 700- thats only 200 days off of my original goal - we'll see.